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I had to weigh up the possibility of losing my mind against losing my future children


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by Dearbhla Crosse
30th Mar 2021

Read time: 9 mins

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Holograms of the children she may never have dance across Dearbhla Crosses mind as an MS diagnosis and Covid-19 are unwelcome reminders of her biological clock ticking.

Up until recently, the thought of having children never really entered my periphery. I had spent much of my twenties and early thirties flitting through life, avoiding any real commitments, even down to which country to live in. In 2019, a bout of numbness up my left torso and tingling in my hands and feet prompted a visit to a neurologist. A subsequent MRI scan revealed scars dotted down my spinal cord like constellations, nerve...

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