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I had to weigh up the possibility of losing my mind against losing my future children


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by Dearbhla Crosse
30th Mar 2021

Read time: 9 mins

Women with MS who take medication, especially immunosuppressants, cannot become pregnant unless they come off medication.

Holograms of the children she may never have dance across Dearbhla Crosses mind as an MS diagnosis and Covid-19 are unwelcome reminders of her biological clock ticking.

Up until recently, the thought of having children never really entered my periphery. I had spent much of my twenties and early thirties flitting through life, avoiding any real commitments, even down to which country to live in. In 2019, a bout of numbness up my left torso and tingling in my hands and feet prompted a visit to a neurologist. A subsequent MRI scan revealed scars dotted down my spinal cord like constellations, nerve...

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